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Holly
21 April 2009 @ 18:05
So That's It...  
My time on Livejournal, I'm pretty sure, is coming to an end.
I have 2 accounts on this website, neither of which I use anymore - I've been keeping a written journal as a way of recording my life and it's events, and for other things I once used this site for, I've now discovered other websites, that I prefer.

I'm trying to purge my life of things... Bad habits, useless posessions, harmful relationships, etc. And I've been doing it online as well. There are so many websites I don't use. I've already deleted myspace and, after using it for only a week, twitter. I need less things clouding up my vision.

I won't be deleting this account just yet, first I need to save all my personal entries (I feel saving them to disc should work fine), and move all articles, links, points of interest, to my tumblr, which is now my online scrapbook.

But... ah, that said.
I want to be able to post to ADIML. Damn.
Okay, I'm undecided about deletion yet. But I'll no longer be posting.
 
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Holly
05 April 2009 @ 16:35
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See, I'm outside of my comfort zone here, truly, and I want to go home.
I called up National Express and they say that changing my return date is no problem.

Thing is, if I go back on the 11th like I want to, I miss Easter weekend, which was why mama wanted me up in the first place.
If I had the hindsight that Tom wasn't going to be home all April, I'd have only come up for that 3 day weekend.

But I'm going to be here 11 days and I don't want to, if I amend my return date, that makes today 6 sleeps instead of 10.
But it means I don't go out with my family on Easter weekend like planned.
Thing is, I am more than cool with that, but it would most likely upset them a bit.
Mama said if it makes me happy I should go to Stoke whenever I like, which would be the 11th, but I still feel bad about it, so I don't know what to do.

She also suggested going back on the 14th instead, meaning I would get to spend the weekend with them and it would be 9 sleeps until I'm home. But that seems like a poor compromise. Just one less day away from him. I mean, it's something, but it's not what I want.
Hell, ideally I'd be back with him tomorrow, but he's still at home in Wellesbourne.

I'm jealous of how comfortable he is at home, and how happy to be there.
While both our families love us a lot, there's a big difference in comfort zone.

He has his own room, with his stuff and his PC. His family are all relaxed, and his house is warm and he doesn't need to do housework or...
I know I'm being frustrating.

But here is cold, and everyone's shouting and coughing REALLY loudly and arguing and stressing out, and I don't have my own room or a PC of my own with internet that works at a reasonable speed. AND IT'S REALLY COLD.
I don't know, I'm so outside my comfort zone, and being in Sunderland almost puts my head right where it was before I left.

I just don't want to be here. Being here means being cold and frustrated, and thinking too much, and over analysing EVERYTHING.

I suppose in more positive news, I emailed Keele's accommodation people and asked if it would be possible to stay in a student room over the summer.

 
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Holly
04 April 2009 @ 12:05
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I AM HOMESICK.
 
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26 March 2009 @ 20:47
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Holly
17 March 2009 @ 11:48
ADIML  

16/03/09.
Today was my boyfriend's 21st birthday,
and it involves cuddles, cake, and lazing around.

There are 60 images in total.
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Holly
22 February 2009 @ 14:30
It Just Takes Some Time  
I'm having a much harder time these days coming up with titles for my personal entries, seen as I don't listen to music as much anymore. I'm pretty sure I'm recycling old ones.

I don't have confirmation yet, but I heard through the grapevine that my laptop is fucked. I don't know how the hell I'm supposed to finance another one, considering I can barely afford to feed me and my boyfriend, let alone pay anyone back the money I owe them or start saving for my university needs.

I'm still waiting on a phonecall from a woman named Becci about that job in Stafford train station, the more I think about it, the more ideal I realise it would be.

I finished Haunted this morning, which I really enjoyed.
Not the best I've read, but far from the worst, and certainly memorable.
I liked the theme it had - That question posed of whether or not humanity enjoys it suffering, needs it, begs for it, and makes it when no one will inflict it on them. It seems like a very valid question.
Interestingly, I've now picked up Notes from Underground for the second time, and this book seems to have a similar theme in it, at least at first, about whether or not the character enjoys his suffering and bitterness, almost throws himself into furthering the sources of it.

I mean, when asked, I doubt anyone would say 'Yeah I like to suffer', but maybe there is something in the subconcious... Some people like a bit of sexual sadism. And there is the fact that, despite how easy it seems in my mind to start countries down a path to a less warring future, we're still hurling ourselves into wars left, right and centre, and taking everyone else in with us.

Right now I'm being a little dull. Having ticked off all the more immediate goals on my 43 things list, I'm left with the next step of my motivational development - goals which require more effort and movement, and, some of them, more money.

I really need to visit my nana's so I can pick up my sketchbooks and scrapbooks, and more to read. But I can't do that until Friday when I get some money in my bank enough to pay for fricking busfare. Until then I can work on collecting images for my scrapbooks, and of course, goal number 3 - "Stop complaining so much".

I've emailed Craig, my old english tutor, to ask him if he can verify my identity.
You see, to apply for student finance, I have to send them my goddamn birth certificate along with a form saying I agree that I'm me, and another one from someone I am not related to or romantically involved with, of good social standing, who I've known for 2 years or more.
Sadly, everyone I know that fits that description, lives in Sunderland, and so I have to email attatchments and ask them to then make trips to the post office.
He hasn't got back to me yet.

I've decided to stretch my ears to, and leave them at, 16mm for now.
Which means I only need one more expander till I'm there.
Thing is, my ears have been smelling awful at the size they're at! I looked up how on earth to stop them doing this, or how to at least reduce the stink, and the best 2 methods seem very reasonable.

The first is to use cocoa butter when washing the ears - to rub a small bit in and around the hole. This helps against growing bacteria, etc, thus helping with the smell, but it also makes the skin softer and suppler, which means that if I do decide to stretch them more, it should be a touch easier.

The other tip was to use plugs made from natural material, as silicone or plastic (which I have in now) often makes the smell worse. I was happy to hear this, seeing as I've always fancied finishing up with some wooden plugs. Problem is, they've always looked really expensive.

However, I had another look last night and found these -


:) They're gorgeous!

The maker is selling them on Etsy, and I've emailed her asking how much a custom pair of 16mm would cost. She hasn't got back to me yet, but fingers crossed they're cheap.

And for now, I'm gonna see about making the rest of this day a productive one.

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Holly
21 February 2009 @ 17:16
It's Been One Week Since You Looked At Me  
It's been 6 days since I wrote anything here, which is annoying because I had resolved to use this journal daily (or at least close) for both personal entries and extracts from poems, books, articles, etc.

I finished reading Fight like a girl, the book Orly gave me months ago, and it was brilliant. Now I'm reading Haunted. Or rather, Im almost finished with Haunted.

Not much is going on, I'll write again tomorrow.

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Holly
15 February 2009 @ 15:19
She Take My Money  
That awesome artist, Keri Smith?
Well she has a book out (one of several) called 'Wreck This Journal', which you should really check out the premise of on this website. I told Tom all about Keri and about this book when he woke up, about how cool it all is, and then he bought me the book on amazon when I wasn't looking. :D

I can't wait to play with it!
I've started reading 'Fight like a girl', which is a book on Feminist activism that my cousin gave me aaaaaages ago. I'm going through it with a pink highlighter so we can all have a good chuckle at irony.

Also, that woman hasn't got back to me, and it's the end of the week. :(

Also also, this was on postsecret this morning and I really liked it...

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Holly
14 February 2009 @ 21:37
Keri Smith  
I'm feeling quite cheery and inspired right now.
Tom has been in bed since about 12, so I've been pottering around all day trying to be productive. Got some drawings done, finished reading the Communist Manifesto, deleted my myspace etc, but a few hours ago I started to get bored, so went off on one of those 'Let's dive into the internet and see what we find' kind of tangents.

I've discovered this woman called Keri Smith, who is a writer and a guerilla artist and one of those generally all round awesome examples of human beings.

I'm not gonna write about her 'cause I'm busy reading and looking at everything I can find by her on the net. But you can get to most of it from here.

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Holly
12 February 2009 @ 18:48
I'm Tellin' Y'all It's Sabotage  
So Tom' sleeping pattern has come round to him, once again, having a nocturnal week, that works something like this - He'll wake up at 8pm, me and him will hang out together till about 1am when I will then go to sleep until he wakes me at about 7/8am. We'll then hang out together until about 10/11am, when Tom will go to sleep.

There are upsides and downsides to this.
One upside is that I get space to get on with things, and also that we each get the bed to ourselves for a certain amount of time each day.
A downside is when Tom asks for the light to be left off at 7pm, so that I end up sitting in the dark and getting a headache.

A downside that is specific to today is that unless he gets up in the next 2 hours or so, I can't ask him to go to the shops for me and buy chocolate for my poor achey woman cramps.
That's the thing with being the one who is awake all day, you're always on ruddy shop-errand duty.

So anyway.
The biggest news is -
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BOOYAH. :D

I feel jammy having 3 unconditional offers.
As soon as the last one came through I replied, putting Keele as my firm and declining the other two. Now I'm waiting on the application for accomodation to come through in the post.
Tom says Hawthornes has one kitchen and 2 showers for every 30 students.
I am NOT living there, nu uh.
I wouldn't mind getting myself a cosy little en-suite.
Hell, for an extra £20 a week I might as well!

I'm also waiting to here back about a cushty little Barista job at Stafford station. Logistically it would be PERFECT, so fingers crossed!

And, so long as the Abbey don't take any money out of my bank account on Friday I'm off to Manchester for the day with Tom and Sarah and Craig on Saturday! I'm going to do ADIML that day as well I think. :)

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Holly
12 February 2009 @ 18:29
Buying A Gladiatorial Myth  
Both Bin Laden and US cold war nostalgics pine for epic narratives.
by Naomi Klein

Since the Pentagon released its own Osama bin Laden video last month, the al-Qaida leader's every gesture, chuckle and word has been dissected. But his co-star, identified in the transcript only as "Shaykh," has received little scrutiny. Too bad, since he offers a rare window into the psychology of men who think of mass murder as a great game.

A theme that comes up repeatedly in Bin Laden's guest's monologues is the idea that they are living in times as grand as those described in the Koran. This war, he observes, is like "in the days of the prophet Mohammed. Exactly like what's happening right now." He goes on to say: "It is the same, like the old days, such as Abu Bakr and Othman and Ali and others. In these days, in our times."

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Holly
09 February 2009 @ 17:48
Post Secret  


I found an email someone had written about their opinion of Post Secret.


-----Original Message-----
Subject: Biography

Today I went to Barnes and Noble to purchase your PostSecret book. I had sent in secrets that had never appeared on the website, and now felt that looking at or buying the book was a secret in itself. I was having difficulty finding it, and was reluctant to ask for help. After about 20 minutes of searching, I finally caved and asked an associate to help me find it. The woman led me right to it - in the Biography section.

I was shocked.

How can this be considered a biography? A biography of who? It was written by hundreds of strangers - how is this biographical? I sat down with the book, and began to read. I slowly realized the answer to my question. I was reading a biography of myself. Of myself and everyone else I know, or have known. None of the secrets I sent in were published, but the secrets I was reading were mine nonetheless. I felt them, I felt their reality, I knew their depth and their strength. These secrets belong to everyone. This book is a biography of the human spirit, of human nature. It is the deepest, most true biography I have in fact ever read. Most biographies leave out the secrets, those small nuggets of stark reality that people keep inside themselves. This biography is nothing but that - and for that it is invaluable.

- Georgia

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